Another year and I'm still hear. Not really fighting the good fight but enough to scrape by. Lets start with whats the same. I still cut (just a little more then normal), I still am in school, and all around still screwed up in the head. Whats new I smoke like a chimney, and drink like a fish. So far the end of last year and the beginning of this one have been hard. I lack the will most have to keep going, thus wishing to die at most moments. Or a careless demeanor to most parts of life. But on the bright side I have some of the greatest friends you could have. I physically am well, I have most the things I want and have the appearance of being somewhat fine with life. But thats really just a farce I really lack the energy to keep up for to much longer. I feel strong emotions now which is a very odd and somewhat new feeling to me. So pretty much I have no idea whats happening or whats going to happen. So thats your update for now.